I can’t remember the last time I’ve been truly happy. I spend all of my time trying to please everyone that I’ve lost sight of what I want. My whole life I have lived by the rule of others. It’s always do this, don’t do that act like this. I feel that I will never get to experience what life has to offer as long as I live with my parents. My parents have been holding me back since before I graduated high school, I’ve been trying so hard to move out but between balancing school trying to work enough to afford my own place it’s far too stressful and if I get too stressed out it can trigger a sickle cell crisis and that’s the last thing I need happening to me. This is such bullshit.